“If God brought you to it, He’s going to bring you through it.”
A sweet lady said this to me a few weeks ago when she was sharing a bit of her personal testimony and the struggles that she had been through the past few years. For such a challenging position, she was faithful and trusting, knowing that no matter what happened, no matter how desperate things seemed, there was a plan. It was all going to work out the way it was supposed to. He had it taken care of.
I was touched by her story, however, I can’t say that I’ve lived by those words during my life. As a perfectionist, a people pleaser, and overall rule follower, I just struggle. I let the weight of my stress, the over-ambitious strains that I put upon myself, and the fear of falling anywhere beneath perfection eat away at me. I let a constant fear of failure haunt me. I spend more time worrying than I do breathing and letting things go. I spend my free time working on other jobs or projects, and I have this idea that if I’m not busting my butt all the time, I’m being lazy. With these habits, it probably comes as no surprise that I’ve landed myself in a high stress job that’s challenged me in more ways than one over the past 6 months.
So this phrase, this mantra and trust in God’s hand in our lives, it kind of spoke to me when she said it. And I’ve kept repeating it to myself, over and over again, for the duration of the past few weeks, weeks filled with the looming terror of a deadline that I had to meet by this weekend. A deadline that myself and many of my coworkers thought was impossible and overly-ambitious. It was something that we thought would never happen in a million years.
And you know what I did? Yes, I worked my butt off the last few weeks. But I also prayed. I prayed and I trusted and I tried my best to just let it go. Take things out of my hands and accept that God’s will was going to happen no matter how much stress I brought into my life. I expressed gratitude for every little bit of progress and said thank you for every step in the right direction.
Yesterday was the deadline. Yesterday was the day that I needed this small miracle to happen by. And it did. It all fell into place right on time, not a moment too soon and not a moment too late. And all I can do now is smile and keep on repeating that little mantra, because out of this whole scenario, I’ve learned one lesson.
There are going to be challenges in life. Times when we think that something is completely impossible. Days when it feels like the weight of the world is on our shoulders and failure is inevitable and it’s just all too much and overwhelming. However, despite those feelings and how easy it is to just succumb to the stress and fear, there’s another option. You can look at an obstacle with fear of failure. Or you can look at an obstacle with faith in God’s plan. And whether that means success or just knowing that you gave it your best shot and God had other plans in mind, it’s a faith that just feels good. And that good feeling that comes with faith, that’s priceless. Because you know what? The unknown is pretty damn scary. Especially when deadlines and important life challenges are involved. But, it’s a hell of a lot easier to face the unknown and life’s obstacles with faith, than it is to look at an obstacle with fear and predicted failure in mind.
Because it’s true you know. Whether it ends up the way you want it to or not, God’s going to bring you through it somehow.